elp mi

I hate presentations
I hate having to talk at presentations
I hate not knowing what I'm saying at presentations
I hate preparing slides to avoid not knowing what I'm saying at presentations
I hate thinking about preparing to avoid not knowing what I'm saying at presentations
I hate hating to think about preparing to avoid not knowing what I'm gonna say at presentations

I just wanna nerd out and study in my little cocoon,
i promise never to complain about studying ever again (hmmmm....boleh kah?)

I just hate presentations laaaaaaaaaaar

I Dreamed a Dream

There was a time when men were kind,

When their voices were soft,

And their words inviting.

There was a time when love was blind,

And the world was a song,

And the song was exciting.

There was a time when it all went wrong...

I dreamed a dream in days gone by,

When hope was high and life, worth living.

I dreamed that love would never die,

I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid,

And dreams were made and used and wasted.

There was no ransom to be paid,

No song unsung, no wine, untasted.

But the tigers come at night,

With their voices soft as thunder,

As they tear your hope apart,

And they turn your dream to shame.

He slept a summer by my side,

He filled my days with endless wonder...

He took my childhood in his stride,

But he was gone when autumn came!

And still I dream he'll come to me,

That we will live the years together,

But there are dreams that cannot be,

And there are storms we cannot weather!

I had a dream my life would be

So different from this hell I'm living,

So different now from what it seemed...

Now life has killed the dream I dreamed...

~Les Miserables~

YOU'VE GOT TO GO TO THIS LINK:

Britains Got Talent (made me tear!)

Somehow I'm not allowed to embed it.

Dont want to give too much away by talking about it, just go watch it!

I must must must watch this musical before I die

Which got me thinking...

What is the one thing you've got to do before you die?

Hmmm...

edit: aiyoyo what is wrong with my blogger account! I cant space the paragraphs!

P/s: hope you already clicked and view the link before you scrolled down here cos :

I liked her voice singing it even more than the original Elaine Paige, its now on repeat on my ipod! woot woot!

Multiples

XOXO

ARGH... remind me again, why I'm watching downloaded episodes of teen drama and not preparing slides for Dissociative Disorders?

Anyways Episode 25 of Season 2 Gossip Girl (yes, i confess), made me think about girlfriends.

You meet them everywhere in kindie sharing porridge and tea biscuits, in sekolah rendah combining forces to wage war on the ultimate enemies: boys, in sekolah menengah taking turns to teman each other to the toilet (only god knows how its been programmed in us that we cant go alone), in college learning to balance our new found freedom and dreaming our big dreams , in university catching our stars for us when we almost lost our dreams.

Though each girl will have to carry on to do her own fabulous thing in life,

a girlfriend never gets old.

Though we get older, we forget names, we start wearing black, we lose some hair, we change,

just a simple chat with that crazy ol' woman and we are girlfriends again =)

"You are high school to me,

all of the boyfriends.. and mean girls.. and.. and tests.. and teachers..and our crazy mothers

we went through it together we raised each other

you're my Sister"

Serena Van der Woodsen.

Young sis Lily : So where's your car?

Big sis Carol : How do you think i got you outta here? (having just bailed her sister out of jail)

Young sis Lily : You sold ur car?! what are we gonna do? wanna walk?

Big sis Carol :walking in L.A? Wow sis i have SO much more to teach u. C'mon its us, we travel in style no matter how we travel.

Missing all of you!

Ps: no idea what wrong with blogspot's paragraphing, but too tired to work it out

Chronicles of a clueless girl on a bus (I)

It was friday, the day after the killer packed exam Thursday where I had a triple whammy of Obstetrics EOP + Obstetrics MCQ + Paediatrics MCQ. We had just passed up our case resport, on call report and log book and rushed to pack our stuff before heading straight lined for Subang. On the way i was still in shock that I somehow survived the whole ordeal of 3 exams in 1 day, while contemplating my plans for the 1 precious holiday week ahead. Lesley and I had short discussion about me visiting Kedah during my holidays, by short i mean short, like the 10 seconds before she boarded the bus back to Sungai Petani. So after dropping Ian Zing back at her place I was still questioning if this trip would actually work, somehow i reached the petrol station in time to catch the bus ticket sales person, there and then I had to call Lesley check if my accommodation would be possible, and ohhhhh the daunting task of getting my Pa's permission. See, its not that he doesn't want me to see my sister, he has just always been very concerned about our studies and don't want me to be disrupting her study life. BUT BUT BUT.... HE SAID OKAY!

Geng geng geng geng.... Denise bought herself a two way ticket to Sungai Petani for the next morning and the deal was closed!

Couldnt really pack that night because of the fatigue brought forward from the whole obstetrics posting, exams and rushing for report date lines, I actually was drifting in and out of sleep while packing my bags. BUT BUT BUT..... I somehow got it done!

And at 10.30am the next day I was on the highway heading north!

Shucks...and even though I sound enthusiastic now, in retrospect, the bus up sucked big time. Because the original Transnational bus broke down somewhere in Pudu they had to change it to Mr.Cranky-Creeky-Wheezy bus that was at least by my estimation 30 years old! But no biggie, I got to sleep off most of my fatigue debt on the bus. Lesley told me to bring some dvds and my laptop for some entertainment on the bus, which i did, I watched "Taken" a super kan-cheong movie about women trafficking but wah liao wei right at the kan-cheong part, my laptop ran out of battery!!! stunned.... was dying to know what happened next but had to force myself to sleep after that... aih.

Sleeping was not easy, I was blessed with the seat for which no curtains were made! But oh my the paddie fields we saw after the Juru toll were BEAUTIFUL! You know how in primary school we have those line drawings of paddie fields with a singular hut or farmer, and they would draw the paddie fields as "petak-petak", but the paddie fields i saw were BEAUTIFUL! Fresh sunny green! Rolling for meters and meters! Flowing flawlessly! Super cantik lar, I took a few pics with my hand phone but am too lazy to reach for my hand phone now, so i will just use the pictures I got from Lesley before I left.

Upon reaching Sungain Petani, it began to rain what a welcome eh? But Lesley had a cab, it seems that students have a few taxi drivers whom they regularly rely upon for transportation and they can just call the uncle at any time from anywhere and he will *zoom* to the place. Even to the extent of calling the uncle to pick you from penang and drive all the way back to AIMST because you missed the last ferry! (not that that happened to us, oh noooo we were perfectly street smart girls as you will soon see)

The uncle was kind enough to drop us at Centre Square, and agreed to pick us up after we were done. The initial plan on the phone the night before (yes, she read out a WHOLE itinerary to me, damn efficient man) was to go for famous red bean ice blended near the bus stop but because it was raining we opt for plan B : lunch and Master Coo's.

On the way back the cab uncle brought us around Semeling because he wanted to show me the famous seafood, just listening to him describe it was mouth watering....

The rest of the night was spent watching movies (OMG "TAKEN" made us super paranoid, DONT TRUST ANYONE!), eating the snacks I brought from Subang, and getting acquainted with some insects.

We had to sleep early (although we didnt) because the next day was geng geng geng geng...

PENANG DAY!!!!

Another whatshallmecallit

Exams are over and done with!
I freeeEEEeeee!

One of the questions during the obstetrics paper that was of much discussion:

A primigravida (meanning she has only 1 child), with a heart condition and has to be on lifelong warfarin therapy. What would be the best form of contraception for her?

A. Oral contraceptive pills (cannot, cos the hormones will mess with her heart condition)

B. Implants (i assume it was Implanon, a method of implanting a small rod beneath the dermis which releases sustained amounts of progesterone for 3 months. I think cannot la cos first of all the procedure might cause bleeding)

C. Coitus Interruptus and rhythm method ( I was going to choose this already, but common being practical here we all KNOW the human kind and its inability to take simple instructions what more control nafsu yang overflowth in the spur of the moment right)

D. Intrauterine device ( cannot, risk of bleeding, infection)

E. Vasectomy ( sounded very ganas at first, for one, the heart condition is in the wife but the innocent by stander husband yang kena kidnapped blindfolded and *snip snip* ikat. Someone was commenting "What if the marriage doenst work out, and he decides to re-marry? Then he cant have children with the other wife!" haha well, at least this procedure would encourage some degree of marital loyalty lor...secondly the family only has 1 child i assume most families would like more than 1 child, what more if (god forbid )that one child was a GIRL, THIS i added in sarcasm if you didn't already realise, because of a recent encounter i had, more explanation to follow. However, in the end I chose this answer because i felt it was very dangerous for her to be pregnant, but mainly because I didn't know which other choice to choose la actually.)

Well DING DING DING DING the answer the lecturer gave was indeed vasectomy. Ya so dont come to my gynae clinic k, your husbands wont like me cos im busy ordering people to be *snip snip tied.


Talking about the only 1 girl issue, I come from an estrogen dominating home. I'm female, my two and only siblings are females and my mother well obviously if female, my dad is surviving and thriving on his little androgen island. The point is, my parents have 3 daughters, a simple fact. Sometimes it surprises the people i meet but usually they will just make a "charlie's angels joke" or a " girls are easier to look after" (which i know is NOT true but well they are just trying to be nice so its ok), but yet again SOME people just find the phenomena of 3 daughters downright impossible and take it upon themselves to let me know how my parents have offended the natural order of the world.

XX : This is my ******'s daughters: Lesley and Denise
Pro-XY : OHH right.. So he has 2 daughters and 2 sons?
XX : Haha no lar, he has 3 daughters the other sister at home she is in form2.
Pro-XY : OHH so he has 3 daughters and 1 son?
XX : Errr no lar, they have 3 children only.
Pro-XY : OHH 3 girls only ah? no boys? eh..how come ah? *looks at me with big questioning eyes like i owed her some great explanation*

Sorry la aunty, you see ah when I was a swimming fetus in my mother's womb, i decorated it with so much Disney Princess pictures and furniture the uterus became virtually inhabitable to the male species, somehow it is scientifically proven that everytime a male fetus even LOOKS at one of the disney princess pictures i hung up on the uterus wall, he will (god forbid) DIE OHH! how OHH??

And the plot further thickened when they found out my sister was studying dentistry and me medicine in IMU.

BUT before I get carried away, I'm supposed to be on holiday remember?
Gotta perform my rightful holiday duties starting with SLEEP!
Sorry aunty, will make fun of your other untasteful comments (which were numerous) another time when I'm more pissed off, sleep deprived and hungry.

Smiley Faced

I wanted SO MUCH to refrain from complaining about exams this time.

So I'm going to sleep.
G'nite exams, see you in the morning.